A Woman’s Journey through Heroin Addiction Recovery

In this guest blog, we are pleased to have Kimberly Karch, a former addict who has overcome her 15-year battle with heroin addiction, share her recovery story with us.

I cannot guarantee that your journey through sobriety will be easy, but I can guarantee it will be worth every ache and pain you will have to endure. They say that your worst day in sobriety will still be better than your best day using. I recall this often and reflect on it frequently.

On November 29, 2013, I put down the drink and the drug and surrendered. I was 31 years old.

I started drinking and using at the age of 15 and didn’t breathe a sober breath for 17 years. In my very first AA meeting, I  heard that the age you start to abuse drugs is the age in which you stop growing emotionally and spiritually. I was only 21 years old when I heard those words and I believe it now to be completely true. I went to meetings, listened and understood, but I didn’t want to believe because I was just not ready to quit.

“Gateway Drugs” Led to Serious Heroin Addiction

My story is dark; it is murky and it is horrific. I started with alcohol, then marijuana, then cocaine to crack cocaine and ultimately heroin. It went from bad, to worse, to horrendous. I had no desire to live. All these things you learn about “gateway drugs” could not have been more accurate for this addict. I awoke this demon, this self-created monster that had burrowed deep within my core. I had zero defenses against it. Nobody could come in between me and my addiction. My family, my friends, doctors, priests and therapists all tried but nothing was strong as I allowed this addiction to be. It consumed me and I was in complete servitude to it.

Returning to AA at 31 years old, I wasn’t thoroughly convinced I had a problem with alcohol. Was I a drug addict? Yes, but I still tried to believe that maybe if I fixed my anger issues, built up my self-esteem and developed self-worth, that I could somehow drink responsibly again. But I was missing something.

In AA, you are told to find a higher power. This task was met with complete resistance. I was raised Catholic and went to church with my parents until I was able to convince them otherwise. In my mind, it was my higher power’s fault I was like this. I cursed him every day I woke up alive. The hate I had for my higher power was stronger than the hate I carried around for myself. Desperate enough this time, I sought him out, the same higher power whom I cursed just days before and he delivered. I had finally found what I was searching for my entire life. I finally filled the deep void in my soul.

 

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